Just as the title says. I have been given various projects mainly consisting of three page comics that I update here on deviant art....sometimes. The art I use in these pages are just not my style and I honestly don't know what it truly is. People who know my work closely tend to say that I'm not being true to my art in these homework assignments while my classmates who do not know of me brush me off like one of the terrible students who somehow made it into art school. This paragraph is starting to sound like my previous journal entry isn't it? Well, I apologize but I cannot help this fact that not much has really changed.

At least not to the extent where I am pleased with my self and work.

On a good note I've found a wonderful perspective book that has truly revolutionized the way I look at perspective and I also think that my storytelling is improving. So perhaps what I said before was a bit of a lie; there is some good that has come from these weeks in school, but just not what I'm looking for. It is my sophomore year at college (a very tough college mind you) and my first year here as well and hopefully I'll improve in years to come. It is just difficult seeing the wonderful works displayed on the crits or piles of homework in class; students who clearly know what they wish to do but seem uncertain about the salaries earned in this career.

This is an ego destroyer, it is as simple as that.

My work produced here merely confirms the ego destroying fact that I am not as good as I thought and it has been difficult to accept this. Thanksgiving vacation is coming up and we only have two days off (not including the weekend). I am going to use this time for, other than homework, to basically start from scratch. A person close to me will be there to help get my work back on track and bring out my true art style. If you notice in these comics and if you've seen good renderings of my cartooning, there is a sense of hesitation in the recent assignments. A vacation sounds like such a wonderful thing right now and hopefully something will come out of this. Now that I understand how far behind my work is, compared to those of my peers (and upperclassmen in the class), a rest is due and I must use this time to rekindle my original love for drawing. To one day show my teachers and others the artist I want to be (at least show potential in this). Wish me luck people, I thank you for putting up with this distressing time in my life; if you know me personally I do not usually convey these feelings in the open which is why this journal has become a small outlet for my thoughts; if I meet you in person I probably wouldn't even mention these feelings I have right now. Thank you again and keep on practicing!

To : Hey I am so sorry for the late reply, but better late then never right? First I want to thank you for your encouraging words and sharing that similar personal experience. Your description of your time in school in that drawing class made me feel less alone about this eye opening experience. I think that I am starting to learn the rules of this genre, at the very least my aspect of telling a story with panels is getting a little better. It is the art and drive that has been bothering me as of late. Since the art has been subpar my will to continue to make a fully rendered comic diminishes over the course of a project. I just get sick of looking at the horrible display of the picture made that I get tired of the assignment. But college is about finding your style and seeing that you might not be as good as you thought you were (ego destroyer as mentioned before), so technically I guess these are normal feelings. I plan to use this VERY small vacation time to find and develop my own style. I'm glad you like my work as you know I adore yours. Good luck on your future projects as well, as we all know, commissions are annoying and demanding but usually pay off in the end, so keep it up my friend!